You Were Always Here For me.

You were always here with me
at night when over the bed I lay
as I thought of you on the cross
I asked you to help me to bear my pain
because at times I could not
hold back my tears of fear
because I did not know
when the nuns would stop

You were always here with me
As you have so many times
taken me by my hands
and You have held them for a while
so now dear Jesus
if You can hold them again for me
for I need You beside and within me
because I am so hurt
and I had left you for a while

You were always here with me
for You had never left me
and I know you are
right here with me
as I have been through these many years
going back and forth to You
Dear Jesus, I know you have
always cared

You were always here with me
so please take the pain away from me
as I want to heal
and if I should fall again
please show me a way back to you
and cradle me in your arms once more
for you are my light and my way
my strength to carry on
as I need you near me
for ever more

You looked after me when I was a child
and I am still that little girl
who has been turned away from your faith
and I do know deep down
that you have not let me go.


Please help me with my cross
as I don't think I can go on much longer,
it brings tears to my heart to see how much
you have done for me over the years.
You are always in the background
waiting for me to fall,
to pick me up again


Dear Mother Mary,
how good, Pure
and truly Holy you are
and please give my son a kiss from me
and rest his head on your lap.
I do miss him so,
just like I miss you and Jesus.
I know you are with me and NO,
I will not forget how you gave
me my strength
to live through my childhood.


I will be with you again this year on Good Friday at three
when your son died 2004 years ago
and Mary if you do not mind,
I will be by myself.


Please forgive me
for my slowness in coming forward
as it was with you and Jesus
I have had the strength
to do what I am doing today.
How blind I have been all these years,
not to see your pain as you carried your cross
and died for my sins.


Please forgive me Dear Jesus,
because I have caused you so much pain
and I see how these men nailed you to the cross
had no mercy for you
and how your Mother Mary must have felt
as she saw you carry your own cross of death up that hill,
how she saw you fall down
and she could not help you.


I went to see you today
and I waked with you a little way,
but I did not go to the top of the hill with you
as the pain was too much for me to bear,
I felt so weak and like a weasel


I left you again to carry your cross alone.
When will I be strong again Dear Jesus?
Please help me to bear my cross of shame with you,
because I do so want to walk beside you
all the way with your Mother Mary
beside me as well.


I do love you Jesus and Mary
and I will be with you both on Good Friday,
but please help me on my way with you,
as I do fall down
and go the wrong way some times.
I am not worthy enough for even been with you.


So please hear my voice
and look down on me
and hold my hand to your heart,
Let me feel your love Dear Jesus
and give me faith in you,
which I so long for.
Thank you, Dear Jesus and Mary
for all your love and for helping me.


My Lord Jesus
I will come as I am
As you know me so well
I have never lost my love
for you
And as You now take my hand
To you loving Heart
My Lord
I will come as I am.


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