I Want My Freedom From My Torment & Pain

Sexual abuse of children by adults is no accident,
it is a deliberate, cultivated few minutes
of satisfaction pleasure done by the abuser,
Which SCARES THE CHILDREN FOR Ll FE.

OH! FOR MY FREEDOM
FROM THIS PAIN AND TORMENT I AM IN.
These nuns /priest do not know the half of what pain is,
nor do they want to know,
I don't want to bow my head to anyone, anymore,
let alone to the nuns/priest
but still I have this fear for them
and I want it to leave me.

I WANT MY FREEDOM

I call out because of the painI am in,
it is too great
and unless you yourself were treated
the same why. as me,
please do not judge us all with your words.

I suffered abuse of all kinds
as well as sexual abuse
from the age of 18 months
at the hands of nuns,
women, older girls and a priest
up to the age of 24 years old.

Some are so bad that I can not put in writing
nor tell anyone about them.
What gives you the right
to be more holy than righteousness
as to tell me how bad I am.
To still be told now
in my gentle years by you,

how I have sinned
because of telling of the abuse
which was done to me,
hurts me even worse than being abused.

How dare you judge me
and others who have been
abused through out our childhood.
Unless you too have had the same life as me,
Please do not judge me

I know that God is my judge
and I leave it in his hands
to deal with these people who abused me,
but@I need to have these people to hear me.
So what is an hour out of their lives to hear me.

GIVE ME MY TIME TO TALK

AND TELL THEM SO AS I CAM HEAL.

And I say again
unless you have gone though
the same as me, please
do not judge me
and many of the others
who have been abused by nuns and priest's.

You do not know
what I had to endure
during these 24 years
and still now I can not cope with this pain,
I need some one
to help me to carry my cross
As it gets heavy from day to day