Like Saints and Martyrs
The nuns always told me
when I was sick or in pain
That I had to suffer The
pain for God,
Like the saints and
martyrs had.
I thought, if they could
suffer so much pain,
then I could too.
This was one reason why I
did not complain,
and,when I did, I was
slapped across my face
and I was told not to tell
lies.
This led me to withhold
any information about pain,
until finally I forgot the
cause of it.
I had always thought that
when I had the childhood accidents
and after I had been sent
back to the orphanages
after months of treatment,
I should have been
suffering no more pain,
So the pain I suffered
over all these years,
i.e. headaches, migraines,
earaches, back pain and nose pain
I never connected them
with my childhood injuries,
as I thought I had been
healed.
I just thought the pain
were the normal run of things.
That everybody suffered
from them
in the normal course of
life.
It wasn't until recently
that I found this was not so.
I did not mind one little
bit,
offering my pain up to God
because I loved God so
much.
What have you nuns and
priest done to me?
that I should feel so low
about myself.
What have you done to all
the
little innocent children
(boys and girls)?
around the world in your
Catholic Church hell hole
orphanages.
We. the little innocent
children (Boys and Girls)
who were sexually abused
and abused of all kinds
in your very cold,
loveless orphanages
We are the
MARTYRS and SAINTS
of today,
because we suffered every
day
with our sweat and our
blood
as you whipped us
and as you tortured us
without mercy.
We shared our blood
in the name of God.
Copyright@ 2001 Ann
Thompson
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